•July 28, 2008 • Leave a Comment

Paramore’s Hallelujah. Second track. Album, Riot.

Depression. Frustration. Everything but fulfillment setting in. Tears. I am holding back the tears. Someday, everything will fall into place. My life will be a perfect puzzle, pieced together.

“Somehow everything’s gonna fall right into place, 
If we only had a way to make it all fall faster everyday. 
If only time flew like a dove, 
Will God make it fly faster than I’m falling in love.”

Another day, another heart break. We run in circles. Me. Falling in Love. Me. Getting hurt. It’s all but an inevitable cycle of ups, downs, downs and more downs. I don’t want to give up. Love’s the most wonderful thing. I will one day savor every second of it.

“This time we’re not giving up,
Let’s make it last forever, 
Screaming Hallelujah
We’ll make it last forever.”

Love is nothing but a figment to me. It is never there. It is buried deep within… Ahm… It’s just not there.

“Holding onto patience, wearing thin,
I can’t force these eyes to see the end. 
If only time flew like a dove, 
Well we could watch it fly, and just keep looking up.”

The next time, I’m not giving up. I’m still not giving up. It is an unfathomable dream. I will not give up. The next time, I hope, I can make it last forever.

“This time we’re not giving up, 
Let’s make it last forever, 
Screaming Hallelujah.
We’ll make it last forever.”


The Lomo Effect

•July 27, 2008 • 1 Comment

Where at: Friendster.com

Dialog starts.

Zelle: “kinda lomo. did you edit this?!” referring to a picture I edited using Photoshop

Me: “lomo?” clueless

Zelle: “the lomo thing in pictures that people nowadays are so fond of… im not sure, but it’s a style or effects in pictures… hehehe 😀 like chiaroscuro i guess…”

What is Lomography? [wikipedia]

Lomography emphasizes casual, snapshot photography. Characteristics such as over-saturated colors, off-kilter exposure, blurring, “happy accidents,” and alternative film processing are often considered part of the “Lomographic Technique.”

Samples. Not good enough though.



70’s children





One funny, rainy day

•July 22, 2008 • Leave a Comment

Yesterday, July 21, 2008.

I have to meet someone at Cluster Building, near Tutuban Centermall.

I rode a jeepney, just to get there fast.

I was wearing”SLIP-pers”.

I waved at the incoming jeepney.

I got in.

First step.

I slipped.

Second step.

I slipped again.

Then, sabi nung mama.



[Jerusalem Post] ‘I love you, Nick!’ by David Herman

•July 21, 2008 • 1 Comment

“Nick! Nick!” Efi Rimon calls out to his devoted Filipino carer in the next room. Day after day, for nine years, Nick Esplana has answered Efi’s call to attend to his every need.

But this time Nick doesn’t answer. Nick is not in Efi’s Katamon sheltered apartment. Nick is lying dead from liver cancer in his home in Manila, prior to burial.

But this is not only the tragedy of Nick Esplana, the devoted and reliable carer who gave content and meaning to the life of the totally handicapped young Efi Rimon, making his life bearable and challenging. This is also the tragedy of Efi, for whom Nick became like a son and father combined, and for whom Nick’s sudden illness, departure and death constitute a tragedy of unimaginable proportions, because, as Efi so often told me: “I love Nick.”

WHEN ILLNESS struck Nick a few months ago, Efi – who can move only one finger but whose mind is more nimble and smart than that of most – found the money to help Nick travel back to Manila for urgent treatment. But it was already too late. Before he could have the life-saving operation, Nick passed away, leaving Efi grieving and bereft.

During Nick’s illness, the wheelchair-bound Efi had even been looking for ways to fly to his hospital bedside to comfort and encourage him. Efi told me many times, with tears in his croaky voice, of his promise to Nick to rehire him as soon as he became well.

Nick was a fine-looking, athletic, musical, bright and hard-working carer. With his fine Catholic Christian ethos, he served as a true role model for those involved in the difficult work of helping the handicapped. His work was not the easiest, for despite Efi’s unusually strong independent spirit, he has been totally handicapped from birth and requires a lot of attention.

UNDER NICK’s devoted care, Efi flourished in many ways. He became very adept in the use of both phone and cell phone. He loved to listen to music CDs and to watch the films of Van Dam and Clint Eastwood. He kept his room and papers in tip-top order. He learned to use the fax and dictated many letters concerning himself and Nick to the various social authorities and government ministries.

He let nothing stand in his way. He stoutly and successfully defended Nick from any attempt to send him back to the Philippines – because for Efi, Nick was a true passport to life.

In those nine years Efi managed to write three books about himself and his feelings, and about the love of his life, a beautiful handicapped Arab girl who, sadly, did not return his affections. Efi also went on several memorable trips abroad.

I first got to know Efi when he was still in the Ilan home for the handicapped in Gilo, and I saw his determination and resolve to achieve a more independent existence in his own sheltered apartment; which is where Nick entered his life. I too learned to admire Nick, and through him all the wonderful, selfless, devoted Filipinos and Filipinas who give so much to the elderly and handicapped members of our society.

In his modest way, Nick gave so much to Efi until a cruel disease and death took him away from the one who needed him most.

Nick is gone. But the seed of love he planted in Israel, in the heart of a young, physically challenged Israeli man, will never wither. It is a moving memorial and example.


The writer is a London-born Jerusalem translator.


desire vs. passion

•July 20, 2008 • Leave a Comment

July 20, 2008 11:01 PM

331 days to go



to wish or long for; crave; want.


any powerful or compelling emotion or feeling, as love or hate.

PLEASE. What I need is passion. Don’t look at me if your thinking SEX. Do I look like P-E-N-I-S?


The wonders of Google

•July 19, 2008 • 2 Comments

July 19, 2008 11:33 PM

333 days to go


I just realized how amazing Google and its little widgets are. We know we’re lazy and we want things done in an instant, if possible. We love technology. We love the easy-way-out-on-things kinda stuff. Google just gave me all that.

First off. Gmail.

What I love about gmail —  LABELS. You can put on labels to your mails, making it easier to search for some important ones. Plus, the colors are undeniably cool. You can filter out incoming mail messages and automatically apply labels to it. It makes surfing through hundreds of your mails easier and more colorful. Opening up mail messages in Gmail is f’ing fast, that is, compared to Yahoo!’s new mail system. I find myself looking at error messages when I login to my Yahoo! Mail account, well most of the time.

My new found friend — Google Reader.

I browsed on wikipedia to learn how Google Reader started. So here it goes. It came to life as one of those little applications from Google Labs. You can access the Google Labs through Gmail by the way. Well, Google Reader is a “web-based aggregator, capable of reading Atom and RSS feeds online or offline”. I don’t know for sure as to how the reader works offline but its great. It’s got out of its beta status already so no need to worry about those freaky little bugs. I love reading through blogs through Google Reader because I don’t like to read anything but posts — this one goes to those unflattering advertisements.

I read on and found out that Google Reader uses the beta application Google Gears enabling users offline access to applications that are normally available online. The power of Google — and some help from SQLite.

I am currently trying out Google Documents. As far as its name is concerned, it is Google’s very own “Web-based word processor, spreadsheet, and presentation application”. 

Google Documents is friggin cool. Well, it is not at par with Microsoft Office 2007, interface-wise. But all the basics and more, the practical features which most often than not are the only ones we use, are there. Plus, you can download the documents as pdf, zip, etc. One major up-factor of this application is, you don’t have to pay for licenses and you don’t have to install anything. There are limitations but who cares? It’s FREE!

iGoogle formerly Google Personalized Homepage.

It is an AJAX-based (so?) start page, features include web feeds, customized themes (which is actually so cool), weather, how-to’s (How to Make a Slip Knot, How to Cook a Snake, and much more), games (Hangman, Super Mario Bros, Tetris, cool huh?), and much more cool stuff. Compare this with 


  • Pageflakes – much fancier than iGoogle, not that all popular here in the Philippines.
  • Netvibes – again, much fancier than iGoogle, step-by-step instructions included. I’ll be looking at it later. Seems really interesting.
  • Live.com – its from microsoft. Need not say anything.
  • Yahoo.com – fancy. cool. easy. feast-your-eyes kinda startpage. flashier than iGoogle.

Just as long as it’s free, it’s good! 🙂

One more thing, and it’s actually useful. Gmail Drive.

If you’re looking for that convenient way to upload important files, this one does just the right trick. According to my friend Wikipedia, Gmail Drive is a free third-party Windows Shell namespace extension (“add-on”) for Google’s Gmail. GMail Drive is not supported by Google. It allows a user to access a virtual drive stored in a Gmail e-mail account by causing the contents of the Gmail account to appear as a newnetwork share on the user’s workstation. In order to use this add-on, the user needs a Gmail e-mail account. The add-on enables the user to use the standard Windows desktop file copy and paste commands to transfer files to and from the Gmail account as if it were a drive on the user’s computer.” I just want to add, you can also drag and drop files to Gmail Drive. 

away with love, in with fashion

•July 18, 2008 • 1 Comment

July 18, 2008 1:09 AM

333 days to go


Let’s breathe in a fresh set of ideas. Away with love, in with fashion.

BravoTV’s hit Project Runway just had the airing of its fifth season last July 16, 2008. Its Philippine counterpart, Project Runway Philippines, will be sweeping our gay culture on July 30. Keeping my hands crossed, I can’t wait to watch it.

The designers I like…

Daniel Feld. He’s so cute. That’s all. His was one of the top designs in the first episode. The challenge for the first episode, by the way, is to create a look out of grocery items. What he did is a cocktail dress made out of plastic cups. It was indeed innovative, though not the top design.

Blayne [I don’t know his surname]. I find him cute. He’s obsessed with tanning, and according to him, he needs to share it to everybody he comes across with. His first design isn’t all that stunning, but he is. 🙂

Kelli. The winner of the first challenge. I like her coz she’s got tattoos. That’s all. 🙂

In with the tucked-ins! I love this one. Tucked-ins courtesy of Wesley. I’m seeing light bulbs in my head. 🙂